The Departed

[veiledndarkness]

Title: Watching Him Leave

Author: veiledndarkness

Movie: The Departed

Pairing: Dignam/Costigan

Rating: Mild R for imagery.

Warnings: Angst, smuttiness. Lol, my faves.

Summary: Every time he walks away, it hurts just a bit more.

For niprhidel. No reason really. Hope you like it!



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Looking up at him, his throat clenched and tight, each indrawn breath a pained struggle, Billy swears that this is the last time, he won't do this again. He moves his tongue, flicking it expertly along the underside of the hard cock in his mouth.


He feels a small ounce of pride at the noises Dignam makes above him, to know that he's reduced this man to helpless groans and muttered pleas. That it's his name Dignam's moaning, his voice a rough and ragged whisper.


Billy tightens his lips, blinking slowly. His cold has lingered far longer than usual and he's sure that his nose is about to start running again. Dignam grips Billy's hair tighter, thrusting faster into his mouth, his eyes half closed.


'I can't keep doin' this,' he thinks fleetingly as he allows Dignam to brutally use his mouth. At first, Billy hadn't minded, now he's not so sure. He pushes away the brief flame of hope that maybe; just maybe, Dignam might want something more from him.


Billy feels his phone vibrate and ignores it, relaxing his throat. Dignam grips his head harder, coming with a strangled gasp. He slumps back against the dirty brick wall behind them, his hair falling in his face for a moment. Billy pulls away, wiping his mouth awkwardly, his lips swollen.


Dignam zips himself up and smoothes his hair down. He looks Billy over, a small smirk on his face. He leans in and drags his thumb over Billy's bottom lip, seemingly hesitating for a moment. Billy stares at him, willing him to move, to do whatever he wants, just don't leave, not yet, not again.


Dignam breathes out slowly before letting his hand drop, his eyes hard and blank once more, his well practiced shield in place. Billy swallows dryly, nodding and turning his head to the side, unable to watch Dignam walk away from him again. He closes his eyes, swearing this is the last time, he won't do this anymore. The words sound hollow and empty, even to him. But watching him leave hurts badly enough that Billy will return, taking all that Dignam will let him have.


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Comments

[niprhidel.livejournal.com]

You know I love this and totally want more (as I do with Jack and Bobby) but I got a question to ask....

[veiledndarkness.livejournal.com]

Ask away m'dear..

[niprhidel.livejournal.com]

i'm running a community of original fanfiction (under a diff. name) that was mostly inspired be The Departed, could you take a look at it and let me know what you think?
http://community.livejournal.com/bonesinthecity/

[veiledndarkness.livejournal.com]

Very interesting..would you be writing the stories?

[niprhidel.livejournal.com]

I would be writing from the POV of certain characters, and since I really enjoy the way you write and I have asked some of my other LJ friends to help with other comm., would you like to write for some of the characters?

[veiledndarkness.livejournal.com]

I'm very flattered that you think so highly of my writings. I'd love to write for some of the characters. The only thing I would request is a summary of what the characters are like so that I can make them stay in-character, lol.

[littlewitch34.livejournal.com]

Makes me sad! It makes me think about the storyline we are writing right now, and how functional their relationship really could be.

[veiledndarkness.livejournal.com]

Lol, yes this is true. I love my angst/smut so much though. I will put them together soon, but this just kind of popped up on me earlier today.

[niprhidel.livejournal.com]

Yay!! *does happy dance* I'm so glad you said yes!

Yes they do need summaries, don't they? I've been meaning to do that...*lol* But they have pics and names, you just have to join in order to see them and I could make you a maintainer and you can post. :D

But one request: if someone rayshell22 ever tries to get in, ignore her requests - she's been trying to take my orignal ideas for her own.

[veiledndarkness.livejournal.com]

Tsk* pesky thieves..

Ok..lol..cool i'll sign on.

[mithrandir-staf.livejournal.com]

I know - she's creeping me and my other partner in crime, Pip, out with how she keeps trying to become a member. Plus, she never commented on anything Pip wrote, only on what I wrote - that really pissed pip off!*lol*

Oh, btw, you're a member,lol.

Might want to friend this alias if you haven't yet. See what cahracters you would like to write and....recuit more members(jk)! *You're actually my 1st member.

[veiledndarkness.livejournal.com]

I seriously love that pic of Mark Wahlberg.....

*drool*

Have you decided which characters you'd like already?

[mithrandir-staf.livejournal.com]

I gush over him in this movie [as you could tell from my other entry...*lol*]!

Well, I want to write Cole Sullivan, Hana Sari, Oliver Tate, Toni Satine, Jared Morgan, and Ana Morgan...

I was kinda wanting you to write Eric and his brother Matthew...and anyon else you see there you like. Whoever you don't pick, I can take.

[veiledndarkness.livejournal.com]

Oh those two I can definitely handle. They're both so...gritty, and I love letting that side out of myself. I'll write for whatever you'd like, no problem.

[mithrandir-staf.livejournal.com]

Heh - I know, I've read how you've done Bobby and I knew you could handle it. Wait until you see the relationships between the other charcters!

Could you do Kurt Locke and Howard McKidd (the big bad guy
), too?

[veiledndarkness.livejournal.com]

*Rubs hands* oh yeah...i always wanted to get inside the mind of a psycho like Howard(technically Costello, I was fascinated by him in The Departed.)

[mithrandir-staf.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah, he's a big time villan! i'm glad you're so enthusiastic! XD

But! You still need some info. on who and what the Angelos are....go to the website 'Wooden badger' under my original journal and join that and it has much more info. on them already than what I could tell you here.

Pip says that this concept I have come up with is too original -lol, that's why some people don't understand it right off the bat. But any questions you have I'll answer.

[niprhidel.livejournal.com]

You're a member! :) But you might want to look at this ch. specifically, it explains some of the info. much better : http://community.livejournal.com/thewoodenbadger/9798.html#cutid1

[veiledndarkness.livejournal.com]

Hmm not sure I really understood exactly what the story is about...could you possibly just give me a rundown for now?

[niprhidel.livejournal.com]

O you have an e-mail address? It would be much better to explain it like that (to much to be said in a reply).

[veiledndarkness.livejournal.com]

I read back a bit to understand about the races and I think I'm beginning to understand that, but where I'm confused is how the races tie in to the characters you were asking me to write. Is it two stories in one? lol, I'm sure you'll make me understand.

My email is spookyratstarbuck@yahoo.ca

[the-lady-revan.livejournal.com]

Very angsty! Can't wait for more :)

[veiledndarkness.livejournal.com]

Thanks! Glad you liked it. I will be writing more, no worries there, lol.

[rome102.livejournal.com]

Wow, totally love it <3 :D